“As your faith is strengthened you will find that there is no longer the need to have a sense of control, that things will flow as they will, and that you will flow with them, to your great delight and benefit.” ~Emmanuel
Another way I think about faith is that it’s a kind of “certain uncertainty.” I have a love-hate relationship with that “certain uncertainty.” It’s hard to put aside that attempt at control. I always think of the saying, “Don’t push the river–it flows by itself.” But I catch myself saying under my breath, “I know better than the river which direction it should take.” I start to push my life in the direction I think it should go, gently at first. Then suddenly my fists are clenched, my stomach hurts, and my mind is racing with angry, fearful thoughts.
I just want the river to flow. I want to close my eyes and float. That is faith to me.